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The Undisciplined Sluggard

Posted in Life on a Stanza, Revelations and Repentance on July 8, 2011 by divineappointment

What say you, God, to this Undisciplined Sluggard?
Say you peace?
Say you woe?
What say you, God, to this Undisciplined Sluggard?
Say you grace?
Say you go?
Depart from me worker of iniquity
Who loves her sleepy pleasures
More than me?
What say you, God, to this Undisciplined Sluggard?
Who goes from good intention to tragic invention
Substituting precious truth for lies
Closing her eyes
Forgeting he prize
Forgeting to rise
Forsaking the stride
Soaking in pride
And fear abides
With many excuses
And grace abuses
And sitting in funk
Thinking she must be useless.
What say you, God, to the Unmotivated Sluggard?
Say you this
a thousand times?
I am married to you,
my daughter,
my bride
Yes, even the backslider is mine.
Bought with a price,
Sealed with redemption
Cleansed you with spice
Healed with repentance
Look at your life
And be my witness
Listen to me
Now with a quickness
Leave all of your treasures aside
The sins that you have stacked so high
Building walls ‘tween you and me
Worshiping nondiety
With complacence bowing down to selfish fear yet
Wrapped in binding flesh and not my freeing spirit
If you will open wide your mouth
I will always fill it
But now you’re closed off from me
I know you cannot hear it
So
I’ll let you serve your own devices
Stubborn heart and stubborn constant crisis
Hear, Undisciplined Sluggard, just listen to me
Follow my ways
With integrity

And I will satisfy you.

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Whole Heart. Pure Heart.

Posted in Revelations and Repentance, Uncategorized with tags on June 26, 2009 by divineappointment

Here I am again. I am excited to hear from you. First off I know I have some thought-process things I have to come clean with. I know I need your help to clean out the filth in my mind when it comes to viewing other people. I take my thoughts into my own hands, get them dirty and let those thoughts inter my heart and dwell comfortably in my thought life.
I play conversations over in my head, take things and twist them to make myself the martyr. You never called me to be a martyr. All of this is for twisted, vain glory again. I can’t fill in the gaps that I don’t understand. If I have a misunderstanding I know I should go to the person and clarify instead of inventing horrible, scary character flaws.
I really do want to live above reproach. You have called us to live with standards that math yours perfectly. You have ordained me to be set apart, not only in my actions, but also in my thought life. I know that love “thinks no evil.” So I am asking for your love to first of all cover my impulsive and meditative sins, as well as increase my ability and capacity to love. I don’t want to fall in the trap of mental back-biting, gossiping within myself –even if I never trespass out loud!
You have freed me from sin. To sin, I do not subscribe. To malice, envy, negative thinking, I do not seek after. My standards are lofty, my character desires to be pressed, fabric softener-fresh and wrinkle free. In order to obtain that, though I must deny myself and allow you to shine through. Again. There is that message. Ah, to release your Glory. Let it run free, accomplishing its work with power! I find myself even now excited for tomorrow. My brand new day. God willing, I will hear your voice and awaken my heart to love, to live, to serve. Lori, today said I was contagious. That’s your favor on my life. Of this I must be careful. What is it that other people are catching from me? Is it you? Or is it me?
2nd Kings 23:3
“The king stood by the pillar and renewed the covenant in the presence of the Lord –to follow the Lord and keep his commands, regulations and decrees with all his heart and all his soul, thus confirming the words of the covenant written in this book. Then all the people pledged themselves to the covenant.”
You pledge to serve with your WHOLE heart. Then there will be no room for envy, malice, or bad-thoughts about other people. If a heart is pure, it has all of something. All means every little bit. If you let go of the things that you are holding onto, you won’t have them anymore. It is as simple as that. As long as you hold things in your heart that do not belong, they will continue to cause you to stumble. Let go, and let God enter into the places that you have made room. After all of this is accomplished, THEN others will come to me. THEN will others come because of my glory that you have not hidden. Then and only then will I be lifted up. You must abase for Christ to abound. Then can my glory run free and accomplish what it was meant to accomplish with power!

Lord, please whatever I need to do. Please, continue to hold me accountable for it. I love talking to you. I love that you are relentless for me! Thank you so much for your words of truth and life. They are joy to my spirit. Jesus, I want to cast out all of the impurities in my life. In my heart. I know you’ll take them. Please allow me the wisdom to recognize them and the honesty to throw them immediately at your feet.
You are truly more than enough for me.
Job 7:17-19
“What is man that you make so much of him, that you give him so much attention, that you examine him every morning and test him every moment? Will you never look away from me, or let me alone for an instant?”
I, unlike Job in this context, say this with a GLAD spirit. For that has been the desire of my heart. You have become the desire of my heart. To be chased after. Now, let me continuously chase after you… with my WHOLE heart, my WHOLE soul and my WHOLE strength.
Amen and Amen.

Loud Song. Sung Sweet. Gently Over Me.

Posted in Life on a Stanza, Revelations and Repentance on February 24, 2009 by divineappointment

Listen my daughter you are alive

You will live and not die

You will be mine forever

You are in my hand

No man nor woman can pluck you out

No matter who they are or how they try

The devil wants to sift you like wheat

But I have already gripped you into my presence and into my promise

You are mine and I am yours

For you are my bride

I married the harlot

I am in love with her

I am in love

Don’t be discouraged by what you think you have done

Don’t be discouraged by what you will do

I am in the midst

You are in my hand

I will be sovereign over your life.

I will rule

I will conquer

I will divide

I will take over your heart

I will have you my perfect bride

You are mine

You are all mine

I am jealous for you

You are my precious jewel

You are my darling girl

I fashioned your beauty

I fathomed your intellect

I gave you your laughter

I created your innocence

It is a gift that cannot be taken away

It is a joy that I have given to you

I give it by my power and it stays with you by my power

It is by my spirit that you are sustained

It is by my joy that you are made complete

It is by my love that you are made without suffering unto death

It is by my grace that you are still here

It is by my mercy that you are still alive

It is by my stripes that you are healed

It is by my blood that you are cleansed

It is by my majesty that you will learn to be royalty

Fit for the king, you father, your husband

Your love

I will be your all in all

I will be yours forever.

I will be

For I am.