Archive for June, 2009

Hmmm

Posted in Life on a Stanza, Uncategorized with tags on June 27, 2009 by divineappointment

I enjoy you. I am still trying to figure out how to be balanced.

Right living.
Availablity
Truth.
Relaxing.
Resting.
Faith.
Apathy.
Work.
Serving.
Accountability.
Judgement.
Conviction.
Condemnation.
Determination
Killing Cockroaches.
Loving.
Leading
Forgiving.
Following.
Trusting.
Letting Go.
Running.
Listening.
Expecting.
Needing.
Cannanites.
Hittites.
Buy.
Give.
Innitiate.
Grace.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart” ALL. “And lean not unto your own understanding. In ALL your ways acknowlege him.” ALL. “And he will direct your paths.

Pure=All=Focused=Singular. ONE.

Whole Heart. Pure Heart.

Posted in Revelations and Repentance, Uncategorized with tags on June 26, 2009 by divineappointment

Here I am again. I am excited to hear from you. First off I know I have some thought-process things I have to come clean with. I know I need your help to clean out the filth in my mind when it comes to viewing other people. I take my thoughts into my own hands, get them dirty and let those thoughts inter my heart and dwell comfortably in my thought life.
I play conversations over in my head, take things and twist them to make myself the martyr. You never called me to be a martyr. All of this is for twisted, vain glory again. I can’t fill in the gaps that I don’t understand. If I have a misunderstanding I know I should go to the person and clarify instead of inventing horrible, scary character flaws.
I really do want to live above reproach. You have called us to live with standards that math yours perfectly. You have ordained me to be set apart, not only in my actions, but also in my thought life. I know that love “thinks no evil.” So I am asking for your love to first of all cover my impulsive and meditative sins, as well as increase my ability and capacity to love. I don’t want to fall in the trap of mental back-biting, gossiping within myself –even if I never trespass out loud!
You have freed me from sin. To sin, I do not subscribe. To malice, envy, negative thinking, I do not seek after. My standards are lofty, my character desires to be pressed, fabric softener-fresh and wrinkle free. In order to obtain that, though I must deny myself and allow you to shine through. Again. There is that message. Ah, to release your Glory. Let it run free, accomplishing its work with power! I find myself even now excited for tomorrow. My brand new day. God willing, I will hear your voice and awaken my heart to love, to live, to serve. Lori, today said I was contagious. That’s your favor on my life. Of this I must be careful. What is it that other people are catching from me? Is it you? Or is it me?
2nd Kings 23:3
“The king stood by the pillar and renewed the covenant in the presence of the Lord –to follow the Lord and keep his commands, regulations and decrees with all his heart and all his soul, thus confirming the words of the covenant written in this book. Then all the people pledged themselves to the covenant.”
You pledge to serve with your WHOLE heart. Then there will be no room for envy, malice, or bad-thoughts about other people. If a heart is pure, it has all of something. All means every little bit. If you let go of the things that you are holding onto, you won’t have them anymore. It is as simple as that. As long as you hold things in your heart that do not belong, they will continue to cause you to stumble. Let go, and let God enter into the places that you have made room. After all of this is accomplished, THEN others will come to me. THEN will others come because of my glory that you have not hidden. Then and only then will I be lifted up. You must abase for Christ to abound. Then can my glory run free and accomplish what it was meant to accomplish with power!

Lord, please whatever I need to do. Please, continue to hold me accountable for it. I love talking to you. I love that you are relentless for me! Thank you so much for your words of truth and life. They are joy to my spirit. Jesus, I want to cast out all of the impurities in my life. In my heart. I know you’ll take them. Please allow me the wisdom to recognize them and the honesty to throw them immediately at your feet.
You are truly more than enough for me.
Job 7:17-19
“What is man that you make so much of him, that you give him so much attention, that you examine him every morning and test him every moment? Will you never look away from me, or let me alone for an instant?”
I, unlike Job in this context, say this with a GLAD spirit. For that has been the desire of my heart. You have become the desire of my heart. To be chased after. Now, let me continuously chase after you… with my WHOLE heart, my WHOLE soul and my WHOLE strength.
Amen and Amen.